Mistress Vivian

I swear, this summer has literally flown by for me. I moved, been working and shooting like crazy and have more upcoming travels, and some major upcoming performances in the fall…. Still need to do physical therapy for my arm and am recovering from a nasty cold/ allergy attack. All I want to do is go away and see my buddy and make sure he’s ok. I miss the Gothic Cowboy - he is the best and one of the most amazing people you can ever meet. I want to visit him and go on vacation - but vacation possibilities are going to have to be on hold until October I think. ArggHH!!

I am also a bit slightly pissy at people who said they would be there for me and weren’t when I needed them most. I try to give people the benefit of the doubt, but recent events have reminded me yet again why I so rarely let people in and keep myself guarded. Just be real and honest. I think thats not too much to ask for. I am tired of being used, hurt and taken for granted - who isn’t?!

xoxoxxo

Vivian

Last night I found out that one of my dearest friends has diabetes and is very ill. He said he lost 25 lbs, (he’s over 6ft), and now weighs 140. He is temporarily blind too. He said his vision is what its like when you are under water. this pretty much hit him out of no where 5 weeks ago with the sudden weight loss and then the blindness. I just can’t believe it.He is one of the most amazing people I know and I love him dearly. So, I will be heading out to Toronto probably mid month to go visit him… In other news, my arm is a little better but still gimpy. Oh, I moved to Greenpoint on Sunday too. No more LES and crappy slum lord!

I just want my buddy to get better…

xoxoxo

Vivian